NEAR, 18. "All your grief hasn’t changed a thing. What you have lost will not be returned to you. It will always be lost. You’re only left with your scars to mark the void. All you can choose to do is go on or not." + /
I am constantly misunderstood; a lot of people just don’t get me. It’s like how I’m perceived to be constantly going out with people. I’m just not. It’s like she’s a hopeless romantic so she’s a serial monogamist, always dating. They look at me and think: ‘Oh she has to be in love or she’s not happy.’ It is possible for a woman to be a romantic but also to be single and to be happy.
The thing that people always write about me, which is almost cliché, is ‘Just watch out— she’s going to write a song about that.’ As if writing a song isn’t special. As if I’m living my life [for material]. Yeah, like it’s a trick I do… It’s not simple to write a song. The hardest times in my life have produced the songs that have done the best… I’ve learned that I’m going to go through really high highs and really low lows. I don’t always pick the right people to trust. But I’m not going to stop trusting people.
People don’t really understand, but having people stare, and point, and take pictures, even if it is in a positive framework, is quite isolating; there’s no two ways about it. You feel a little bit, you know, freakish.